Hi everyone, I’m happy today because I am going to help my Nana cook for our Xmas dinner tomorrow and I can’t wait to open my presents from my Nana and papa. Also I am going to see my therpyist this Tusday and talk about how happy I am now but I still feel depressed but I still have to fake a smile and it hurts to fake a smile that looks like a real smile and I, Again thought about cutting again because I feel like I am sad still, but I still get though it everyday and 2 nights ago I was sleeping and I woke up and my room was black and I saw these 2 figures with 4 legs and they was all white with black spots on them and I wanted to cry again, and My Mama asked me if I seen them before I toke these meds and I said no it started when I toke them and I am getting even scared to even fall asleep in my own room and I was scared to fall asleep again last night because I was scared that they will appear again, I stayed up as long as I can but then I fell asleep I am scared of the dark more then I was before, I am 16 years old almost 17 and scared of the dark now, I can’t even close my eyes and not see them it’s scary
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Well, there’s nothing in the dark…those are some of the weird imaginations we have as a kid, due to what we’ve seen in movies. You’re a scared of what doesn’t exist. To get over it, the first thing to know is there’s nothing in the dark and whatever you’re imagining doesn’t exist.
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That’s want I keep telling myself but I don’t know want’s real anymore and I always think I am a bad person because I have done some bad things that make me think I am a bad person
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What bad things have you done?
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Like bad things I have done?
Well
1.Sex,ect
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I’m sure God has forgiven you…and you’ve done the right thing by acknowledging that you were wrong and not letting it repeat itself…so don’t let your past define you, just learn from it…By the way what’s ect?
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Ect Means more things then one thing i’v done in the past like i said i had sex so i did more bad things too so i wrote Ect
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Oh I see… you mean E.t.c 😊
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Yeah lol
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😊
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How are you?
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I’m doing great, and you?
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I’m doing good 🙂
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Nice 👍
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Yeah,My day is a long day,Lol
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So, what did you do?
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I cooked,cleaned up and after we got done cooking i went and watched tv today and when everybody came we started eating and after we all ate we talked then came home and stuff
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Wow…you really had a great day 😊
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Yeah 😦 But a boring day and a busy day,Too lol
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Not boring, you had a good one 🙏
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I did have a good day though but i am just waiting for tonight because we get to open one present tonight and rest tomorrow yay
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Nice…good luck with your present 😀
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I will, And at my Nana’s i got something that i always wanted too so happy right now this is like my FAVORITE month EVER lol
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What did you get?
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Shower Gel and body lotion Lol and A Collection able Doll that is in a box so it won’t get broke i love those dolls my grandma use to have a lot of them in her living room
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😀….nice…now your skin will glow and sparkle
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Yeah i know lol My sister was already asking me if she can use some when she is allowed lol i gave in and told her yeah lol
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That’s so nice of you.
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Yeah 🙂 lol
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Can i ask you something?
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Yeah, sure
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Do you do Christmas? Sorry to ask forgive me?
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Yes… I do celebrate Christmas
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Sorry to ask though,I was just wondering
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Why did you ask? 😊
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I don’t know but I was just wondering if you did or not,Lol like i fignred You do,When i get sleepy or really bored i can’t think straight or i get confuse really easy lol
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Okay I get 😊
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Lol Okay and My Mama just told me it’s time for me to get off here and i might be able to get on tomorrow and i am going to write another post….Bye have a good day
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Alright…bye and take good care of yourself too
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I will and you also
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You love dolls 😀…maybe when you get to college you won’t like them anymore
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I know but they look nice on the Shelf and My nana and grandma kinda grew up with them and I like how they look though and The ashton drake reborn dolls kinda helps me with my depression too so that’s why i wanted one too you know want im saying?
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Yeah, I get… don’t forget try as much as you can to get over your depression by recognizing the fact that you’re special, beautiful and everyone care about you.
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I know and thank you,The reborn doll from askton drake helps me to not feel lonely because i mean NO ONE i mean no one comes up and hangs out with me, no one calls me to ask if i can hang out with them or hang out with me i get lonely because no one to talk to,
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Don’t worry when you start working you’ll get plenty people to talk to you….and you can also talk to your siblings too
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They can be kind of mean when i try to talk to them nicely and Yeah when i get a job i will have people to talk too
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😀
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How’s you’re Christmas going?
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Just doing some cooking, and watching movies
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Yeah i was cooking earlier with my Nana and sister and few hours ago i got home and I am on here and watching the tv in the same time lol with my dad
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That’s cool…glad you’re having a nice time
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Yeah me too, And you too
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Don’t forget to take pictures
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I won’t plus i am at my home but i wont forget lol i never forget anything well some things but i like taking pics lol
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Okay cool.
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🙂 🙂
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Thank you and lol
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👍
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*thumbs up*–> (y)
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I don’t forgive myself for half the things i’v done,But some I do
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Thank you though for telling me it’s just my Imagining thank you
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Use your fantasy not to scare you, but to encourage you…to give u hope
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Thank you
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